Sunk into a bit of a depression again. In Oct, I have known and would have been with my Gwynn for 17 years – both me and Elfy have Gwynn in common, but I guess I retreated into my little corner of darkness. I celebrated our times with a lot of red wine. She loved red. The love of my life gone.. at least Elfy found solace in his new-found drumming. Me, I just sit and listen to the songs we used to play.. Cradle of Filth, and all down to the melodic (my style) of Nightwish, Lacuna Coil..
Still obsessed with Smite. Still suck at conquest, still loving the Aphrodite playstyle – though the nukes on Vulcan was kinda funny one night I was landing a kill an ult.
I should reach out again to my Yahoo! friends, but it’s just something in me that had clammed up on the chat front. Depression?.. Grief?.. something’s definately empty there. Even my art has died up. Not even keen to pick up the pencil or load up Poser anymore. Everything seemed so difficult
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Hey EU, sorry to hear you’re feeling down again, though it is understandable that certain times of the year and anniversaries of things you shared with your love will bring waves of grief.
I really don’t want to say any platitudes that I’m sure many well intended people have said to you over these past few months. All I can say is, from my own experience with lost loved ones, over time the sadness (which never completely goes away) is tempered more and more with bittersweet and fond memories of your time together. *hugs* I wish I could hug you for real right now, but my arms won’t quite reach. 🙁